Tuesday, January 17, 2012

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So, I'll tell you a story. I am going through old music videos that I really like, and as I'm smoking my cigarette, I came across the lyrics of The White Stripes. A really interesting band that has only two people: a man and woman. If they dated, are related or whatever have you, it doesn't matter. They're a great.

I'm gonna fight 'em all

A nation army couldn't hold me back

They're gonna rip it off

Taking their time right behind my back

And I'm talking to myself at night

Because I can't forget

Back and forth through my mind

Behind a cigarette

And the message coming from my eyes

Says leave it alone

Don't want to hear about it

Every single one's got a story to tell

Everyone knows about it

From the Queen of England to the hounds of hell

 if I catch it coming back my way

I'm gonna serve it to you

And that aint what you want to hear

But thats what I'll do

And the feeling coming from my bones

Says find a home

Going to Wichita

Far from this opera for evermore

I'm gonna work the straw

Make the sweat drip out of every pore

And I'm bleeding, and I'm bleeding, and I'm bleeding

Right before the lord

All the words are gonna bleed from me

And I will sing no more

And the stains coming from my blood

Tell me go back home

I like to write because it makes me feel like I sending a message accross and influening people in some way or another. I like to make a connection, to reflect, learn and grow.

I also like to stay in my happy zone when I write. I don't want to be angry, overly fiesty or bizarre but if the emotion comes out, then so be it. I'm not out to hurt and fight, just to be myself and hope that someone can relate.

I also don't want to be overly sensitive, jealous, envious or cruel...but I am a human and I have those emotions. I just try to feel them before they come out and do damage or hurt someone. I am not purposely a mean person (but I have been), I just try to give constructive criticism and be objective and sentimental. We all have feelings and some feel more than others.

There are a lot of writer to are iconic to me: Robertson Davies, J.K. Rowling, J.R. Tolkien, Margaret Atwood, Sophie Kinsella and I can name others but I just wanted to stop. I can mention more about it later.

Oh yeah, and Hunter S. Thompson. But I've never read anything about him except see Trainspotting and think to myself, "wow, that Ewan McGregor looks fiiiine."

Anyhow, I think as a writer, I'm going to break down but I want to break things down myself before it comes back to me like a boomerang. I don't want to get hurt. But sometimes it happens, I think I will be okay. To can only grow from experiences and learn from your mistakes.

This song reminds me of my friend Alicks. She loves the White Stripes and I never really paid much attention to the music of Jack White until now. I guess it never jumped out at me before. But like I said, lessons learned.

So for me, I am going to use my skills, brains, heart, emotions and attitude to fuel my career. I don't have to be self-destructive or a victim, just really good at reaching out to that pack of people. Because, simply, I was there too. I can relate and feel for them.

~J